Closer

Sometimes I forgot what I aim is what I have to strike before I reach my future. Yeah, after all this time year by year I through my life with pain and happiness which is the major spices in my life. I love to separating myself with people sometimes that I know will makes them annoys. How to make it closer? I don't even have the answer. I keep on thinking why some people like didn't notice I'm there on their story but they like ignoring me. But I just make it simple by treat people who is treat you well. It sounds like I'm so arrogant but the choices are not available to decide which I don't have time to struggle with fucking people. I noticed some people that I met on the first time is like so nice and their attention to me is so undeniable. But, I don't even understand what makes their friendliness fade away? Everyday I bumped into them I just only have their greets and that's it no string attached! I feel like sucks. Sometimes I just really need someone to share with and have some love moment with. I wish I can create my own story life but I am not God. I leave all this to God so let Him do what is the best thing for me. For now I try to draw smile so I wont look so in despair mode. I need them to be closer. Saranghae :)  

Maniac Peers

Ugh, anyway I feel so stressed lately. Plus, the assignments are killing me inside. I don't know how to say actually. But, I feel so bad having stupid friends in my dorm. Generally, I know both of them got very excellent religious background but the way they behave ironically like hell. I don't why I should say this! Just now, one of them I called mr. Stinky accidentally dropped my phone and now I got my phone screen cracked! Unexpected things to be happen. Literally a shit for me. What makes me annoying when both of them advised me that, "it's still can be repair and why you have to look so moody?" Here's my answer, I know it still can be repair but I don't know how to say my mood spoil so bad today...what on earth is God test me now. Ugh, I'm sick facing my day with them. Much harder than put a dick inside the bitch vagina!

I'm Afraid

I'm so busy lately. Gosh, it's very tiring me. Well for this entry I would like to commit something about my feelings. Especially my crush feeling. Actually, I have crush over someone since I met him during National Service Camp early of this year. What can I say, I was bloated with my feeling since the first time I saw him. But, I try to build a friendship with him just for for friend so I can talk to him. I know sometimes I was like desperate to get him, but no I can't. I should never drag the innocent to be with me. I should carry my sins on my own. Day by day, I managed to talk with him even for once for the whole day. He is so nice and totally friendly guy. I still remember when he teach me a guitar song by Najwa titled Sahabat. That is the best moment ever when he literally teach me. But, I don't know why should I have crush over him? Should I stay for friendship with him? I just can't bear it. I do called him "gold-fish". He laughed whenever I call him using that name. For me, I was actually feel so thankful towards God by putting him a part of my life. Met him was the best thing ever for this open veil of 2013. But accidentally, I posted something in Twitter. You know what, "I have a crush feeling over gold-fish long time ago". I didn't know that he noticed that tweet and make it favorite along with retweet. When I saw it on my notification bar, I was so speechless. How can I overcome this situation it's very surprising me. I start to think maybe he will never wanna talk with me anymore, maybe he doesn't want to make friend with me, maybe he also ignore me. What a nightmare. Time is slipping by, I'm getting sick of my stupid feeling towards him. I hope that I can get rid this. I know I should never commit for sins if troubles looking me instantly. I feel torn inside for now. I always hope that people can accept me the way I behave. I  hate to act like I was a good nor innocent boy, while the real me I'm just very hyper-person I love to make people around me happy but actually my stupid feeling always come in a time wherever I think is not the perfect time. So, what should I do know? Text him? Tell him? Leave him? It remains question on my mind

I Miss Them

Hey ya people, writing back some new entry down here.Well just wanna tell you that, I just got back from my school took my finish study certificate. What makes me feel so sad about it, none of my friends I meet! Damn, I really miss them so much. I talked to myself, " I wish I can go back where I can lazing with them all day long I really miss that moment." Well, what supposed I can said God's plans is much more important. I just hoping that one fine day we can meet again and gone crazy like we used to be. Looking at the school surrounding every place that crossing in my eyes and suddenly remembering all the memories lies behind. It's very true like my science teacher said, " janganlah kamu gaduh-gaduh last year kamu ni yah, nanti lepas kamu habis sekolah kamu rindu betul ni. Ingat sentiasa satu hati jangan ada dendam di hati". Feels like I wanna crying. That's all. Miss you CO-TOUR 1 & 2

It's been awhile

First and foremost, hello people out there who always look up here in my blog. It's been awhile I haven't write in this blog. yes I'm kinda busy since I will leaving my school hood soon so I was like speechless that I will leaving it soon. Well that's all

Far Away from Me

Hello there! I really miss those memories with you. But what can I do to force the time and go back to the past. Anyway, I've already received my book that you borrowed from me even though there's some of it was missing no I'm not to much about the book. But I really miss you dearly after all moment we shared together. Since you there being with all night and day you me feel adorable in many way and forever I'll missing that moment. Well congratulations for your new study in Kedah okay! I always pray for your happiness and luck! I puzzled why you haven't text me if you come to school I will go out you know. I still felt uncomfortable with my situation right now since I know that you leaved Sabah yesterday. But best of all, I know that you will always special to me and same goes with you. 

Build My Future

Today was a result day for SPM candidates 2011, all I can say here is..time is precious..I can see all my senior done very well but some of them were not..Actually after I saw them took their result just looked at their face expression I can see if there's curve means they got a very superb result and so on.. Again, my others senior who did not get satisfy result were frowning but for me I conclude them it was their choice to enjoy their SPM chances.. I should take some lessons right from this fact of life story..I don't want to working under the striking sun..I should realize that the time now left me without any paused..