Closer

Sometimes I forgot what I aim is what I have to strike before I reach my future. Yeah, after all this time year by year I through my life with pain and happiness which is the major spices in my life. I love to separating myself with people sometimes that I know will makes them annoys. How to make it closer? I don't even have the answer. I keep on thinking why some people like didn't notice I'm there on their story but they like ignoring me. But I just make it simple by treat people who is treat you well. It sounds like I'm so arrogant but the choices are not available to decide which I don't have time to struggle with fucking people. I noticed some people that I met on the first time is like so nice and their attention to me is so undeniable. But, I don't even understand what makes their friendliness fade away? Everyday I bumped into them I just only have their greets and that's it no string attached! I feel like sucks. Sometimes I just really need someone to share with and have some love moment with. I wish I can create my own story life but I am not God. I leave all this to God so let Him do what is the best thing for me. For now I try to draw smile so I wont look so in despair mode. I need them to be closer. Saranghae :)